“Faith refers to loving God with all that we have and all that we are, our hearts, souls, minds and strength. Faith means fidelity, loyalty to the God who loves us, who rescued us. All that we do, in word and deed, must be done in the name of the Lord Jesus.” ~Jack Wisdom (pretty cool last name, huh?)
In thinking on this phrase, I have realized that not everything I do at work is done as an act of faith. In fact, I think of much of my work as a penance.
As a single mom, there are countless ways I have willingly died to self - and each of those little deaths have brought me untold blessings in the form of joy, deepened understanding, greater capacity to love - give - receive, and taught me what it is to be truly thankful for a God in control of everything.
Why then has this been so hard for me at work? I think in large part it is because I do feel called to something entirely different than what I’m doing now. My work does not equal my calling and my workplace is a pretty negative and dark environment. So at work I have allowed the negativity to blind me to my overriding call as a Christian - to die to self in order that my life might glorify God. I think this is probably true of many believers who work in a secular environment.
In loving God with all that I have, I have neglected to love him with my job - a job I have told Him I’m thankful for (after all, it does pay the bills) because when I landed this job five years ago I definitely considered it one of God’s many successful rescues in my life. But in regards to current thankfulness for my job, I talk to God out of both sides of my mouth - from one I profess gratitude, from the other I beg Him for a speedy deliverance from what I now consider my own personal hell on earth.
What is my job really though? A place where I can daily use my God-given strengths to minister in such a way that my efforts might restore and redeem brokenness in my workplace and greatly glorify our God. My prayer: Show me the way Lord!